So far So Good!!!

It is now Day 4 of my new regiment...diet wise! And I'm doing really well! I'm surprising myself daily!

It has definitely showed me that I am not useless in the kitchen HAHAHA! I haven't started going to the gym yet...this week wasn't a good one haha...Monday its go time!

I owe a huge huge thanks to...well I'll call her AJ...haha...for being there when I have a question...because I have so many!

I can't wait til the pounds start melting off...Miami is less than 2 months away! I need to look better than I already do :D

Here are some pics of what I've been eating...in case you want to start it too! :D

Lunch: Whole Wheat Turkey Sandwich (6 slices of turkey), Raw Veggies and Blueberries

Breakfast: Dannon Light and Fit Yogurt, 1/2 cup of Granola, 10 Blueberries and banana

Lunch: Whole Wheat English Muffin, 4 slices of Turkey, 1 Kiwi Mixed Raw Veggies

Dinner: Grilled Chicken with Grilled Carrots, Bell Peppers and Snow Peas

Lunch: Left Over Grilled Chicken raw Veggies and Blueberries

Dinner: Grilled Chicken, Mixed Grilled Veggies (Bell pepper, Zucchini, Carrots, Snow Peas) Before Whole Wheat Tortilla

Making Dinner...looks pretty!

Dinner: Fajita for 1...Grilled Chicken, Mixed Grilled Veggies, 1 whole wheat tortilla

PM: Snack, Milk Free....Muscle Milk - Vanilla Creme

Dinner: Grilled Chicken, Mixed Grilled Veggies, Brown Rice, sprinkle of Teriyaki sauce 

It's weird...now that I'm cooking dinner almost every night, I am constantly thinking of things to make during the day haha! I wonder what I'll whip up tomorrow!

Enjoy the pics!

~E

Oh....I wanted to say thanks to everyone who has been supporting me in this! With your motivation and support, I know I can do it! <3

Change starts now!

So many things need to change...and starting tomorrow...they are going to!

1. Thanks to motivation from a friend (well many friends), I am changing my diet/exercise plan. I went out and bought lots of veggies, some fruit, lean meat, whole wheat breads, and will no longer be drinking soda or juice! I will also be going to the gym...I'll start off slow...1-2 days a week, and then build up to more days a week. I really want to get back into yoga...and maybe start meditating for at least 10-15 minutes each night. I need to figure out way to clear the stress from my life...I'm hoping that going to the gym, meditating and doing yoga will do the trick!

2. I am no longer going to be pouring opportunities out to people who are not grateful for them. Yes...I am a nice person...I get walked on all the time...and this is stopping. I am not anyones connection into anything...I am my own connection...for me and me only. The only people I truly will help are my close close friends...those who do not use me for personal success. They appreciate me for me, not for who I know or work. This may sound a bit harsh...but like I said...I'm tired of being under appreciated for the opportunities that I give to others.

3. I have just acquired a book that I am going to be calling "The Bible." My goal is to have this book read by the end of this week. After reading it, I am going to use it daily...or as much as I possibly can! It will definitely help me be who I want to be...and conquer my own destiny!

I control the path to my destiny...my mind has all the answers...I am learning to trust myself and my judgement more...and recently it has come into play...and I'm glad at the choices I have made...and have swayed from.

I have to get the thought of "When's it my turn" out of my head...slowly but surely it will be my turn...and I look forward to that day so much...until then...I'm taking it day by day...

Hope you all had a great weekend!

~E

So Frustrated!

Why can't I just WIN for once!

Part of me feels used...doing something to help someone else out...and not getting the credit...it hurts! Why do people have to lie about how something really happens?

I'm done trying to help people...no more...I refuse to be ANYONES doormat... I refuse to let people walk all over me....if I have to be a bitch about it...I will be!

REALLY....WOW...I'm so disappointed in people!

~E

Helping out is in my nature....

But sometimes I feel like I never get back what I give...I truly believe in Karma...but lately karma has not visited me, well at least not in the ways that I am expecting it to. I am always there to help a friend, and give them an opportunity that they might not get on their own... and I don't mind...it really is my pleasure...and maybe I sound selfish for saying this...but sometimes I wish there was more gratitude for what I've done.

I always try to help out anyone and everyone that I can...it's just who I am...sometimes I wonder if people have ulterior motives tho...I would sincerely hope that people are as good hearted as I am by the opportunity that I have passed their way. But there are few that would turn the other shoulder and say...Ohhhh she knows "people" lets see what I can milk from her.

Ugh I really shouldn't have terrible thoughts like these...but sometimes, something someone says, or does or doesn't do really triggers it.

Maybe I'm just thinking into this way too much...which is probably what it is...I mean I am a) a girl, b) a taurus....over analytic and critical...Ok I'm gonna shut up now...

~E

Such A Good Night!

Ahhh I had such a great night tonight!!! Dinner with Co-workers at Elephant Bar! It was sooo yummy! I laughed so much tonight I thought I was gonna explodeeee! It was just what I needed! I night to get my mind off things...The food was good...and we all got free dessert...doesn't get much better than that! I hope that we do it like once a month!!!

After dinner...I met with my Mojo Jeff...it was totally nice to catch up and hang out outside of Circus!

Anyways I had a pretty good day...and I am off to bed! Thank Armin tomorrow is Friday!!!

~E

Because sometimes, writing it down helps....

Sometimes I feel alone, and depressed...but this quote I read today sums it all up...

"Never depend on others as your source of happiness, or you will surely be disappointed and heart-broken many times over. You alone are the source of your happiness and you alone are the source of prolonged emotional suffering. Short of physical force, all emotional pain is self-inflicted. Want is the cause of most emotional misery, and wise people want nothing which is not within their reach or control."




I know recently I've been having some problems with depression...and used a lot of kleenex...but at the end of the day, I am the creator of my own destiny...I have a hard time accepting that sometimes...most times, and on a daily basis occasionally, but I need to start having more faith in myself.


Most days I feel like things aren't going my way, or its not "my time" and that I am destined to be stuck in this rut forever...


I need to keep reminding myself that I am fortunate for being in the position I am right now...for living the life I live...for knowing the people that I know.


Lately I have been praying a lot too...not asking for God to change things...but for guidance...a path...a sign...God has answered many things for me in my life...and sometimes I am asking too much of him...I  must leave all the answers up to him...subtle signs, little answers, a direction...and in time I'm sure there will be the light up ahead pointing me in the right direction...in all areas in my life.


Wow it feels good to get this off my chest...it really does feel good to type it out...it won't totally erase the emotions I feel occasionally, but its a start...and thats all that I can ask for...


Anyways thats all for now....until next time...I hope this helps someone...anyone.


~E

I Survived!!!

My first day back to work this year...haha after vacation...I survived! The kids were pretty mellow until after lunch...then it was back to normal! I kinda missed these kids LOL!

Getting to work was was pretty scary! My truck went ice skating on the snow!!! I drove over some ice and it started to skid....OMG talk about effing scary!!! It happened twice...LUCKILY I knew not to panic...but OMG talk about scaring the shit out of me!!! I hope tomorrow is not as scary!!!



Off to blog something different...ciao!


~E

NEW MAKE-UP BRUSHES!!!

Anyone who knows me, knows that I'm obsessed with MAKE-UP! In the past year my passion has grown even bigger thanks to the makeup artist known as Kandee Johnson! She is AMAZING!!! I have definitely honed my make-up skills thanks to her!

I got this lovely 15 piece professional make-up brush kit for just 29.99 w/ free shipping! It originally was selling for 43.99 but Kandee had a special deal with Crown Brushes...and I'm so glad I watched her video about the brushes because the next day I ordered them!!!

I can't wait to use them tomorrow...I'll post a blog on how they work! Until then...here are some pictures of what they look like!

Much Love,
~E  

          

1 extra day of vacation, and this is what I've done...lol

Yahooo! I have spent it clean, clean, cleaning! Packing Christmas tree ornaments...vacuuming tree needles that have fallen...listening to amazing music and playing with the left over snow!

I wish it would snow just a little more to have 1 more day to relax...but my luck it probably won't...oh well I'm grateful that I got Monday off...

On another note...I am currently listening to Above & Beyond's set from Trance Around the World 350...reliving moments, memories...ahhh and then Satellite by Ocean Lab comes on....Ocean Lab aka Above & Beyond w/ Justine Suissa....OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG This song always always ALWAYS brings chills to my body! I only wish that I had someone that I could sing this too...it would be so epic!

If this was the only song that I could listen to for the rest of my life...I think I'd be ok with that....or anything by Above & Beyond really!!!

This is the song via You Tube...in case you're not familiar with it!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gtnKegk1E_4&feature=fvw

My love is like first steps in this snow, baby,

I follow you everywhere you go, baby.

The pain as light has come to wake you

But you will never realize

That I inspire the dreams that guide you baby.

I follow the winds that bring the cold, baby,

I light a fire in your soul, baby.

The lightest touch of feathers falling

My love might be invisible

But I inspire the dreams that guide you, baby

You're a half a world away

But in my mind I whisper every single word you say.

And before you sleep at night

You pray to me, your lucky star, your singing satellite.

Your singing satellite

You say a prayer

You say a prayer

You're a half a world away

But in my mind I whisper every single word you say.

And before you sleep at night

You pray to me, your lucky star, your singing satellite.

You're a half a world away

But in my mind I whisper every single word you say.

And before you sleep at night

You pray to me, your lucky star, your singing satellite. 

ANYWAYS...I had to share because my love for Above & Beyond is beyond anything that I have ever felt for any other musician/dj before! They just invoke so much emotion...its pure and real...you can't beat that! On that note...enjoy your day :D

~E

SNOW DAY HOORAY!!!

YAY!! I got the snow day I prayed for! Tomorrow I can sleep in again! Thank goodness!

All this extra time gives me extra moments to think about stuff...stuff that I can't control...and stuff that I've been thinking about too much lately!

Too many things have been on my mind...stuff I don't want to post here...but I think a lot of people can figure it out! I hate thinking about it on a daily basis...and would LOVE if for one night I would not think about it so that I wouldn't go to bed sad, or crying even...its so lame I know...but me, I can't control my emotions and how I express them...but writing this down seems to help...

Off to Bed,
~E

A song for the WISE!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uyJ9WqavLCM


Let the rain fall down and wash your pain away...learn to love yourself again....




Something I need to learn...


~E

Dreams...

I have had some rather interesting dreams lately...but many of my dreams last year consisted of me having a baby...like being pregnant, feeling the kicking, and delivering the baby....What the hell...Does anyone know exactly what this means?

Last night I had a dream I had a toddler...there was no baby stage...it went straight to toddler stage...

Is my subconscious trying to tell me something????

If any of you have any input on dreams...please leave me a comment...I'm curious as to anyones input on these dreams! Thanks

~E

The Snowwww is lovely!!!

YES Its still snowing!!! Here are some pics that I took...this was from a couple hours ago...there is more snow now! Which means...if it continues to snow...we might have a snow day! YAY! Enjoy 

~E

Here are some newer pics :D 

AHHH I LOVE THE SNOW!!!

The last 4 pics were added a couple hours later :D

Its snowing...its snowing!!!

I am soooooo happy because its snowing! I love when it snows up here in the desert! When I was younger it would snow up here every year! With the population getting bigger and the habitat being destroyed, it doesn't snow regularly anymore...

With that being said...I am very excited it is snowing! Its the first time its snowed at my house...well with me living in it :) I really really really hope it sticks!! Mainly because I want to play in it! Also because I want a snow day at school tomorrow...Mwahahaha! I'm not really ready to go back to work!

Well here is to MORE SNOW!!! Help me out by doing the snow dance with me :D I want some bigggg snowflakes people!!! Ahhhh...if it snows more I'll post pics!

~E

New Years at Together As One

Together As One 2010 - 2011

This night was supposed to be awesome...yet things were different...I got to spend New Years with New Friends...friends I met through #trancefamily on Twitter...Crissy, Erica and Danny...They were great company! 

Go Ventures really messed this event up this year...staging was terrible, the crowd was insane...and VIP security took forever...I had a couple minor panic attacks just waiting to get searched...which was barely anything!

Will Call took forever for Crissy and I didn't meet up with her until about almost 2 hours after we got there. Usually Groovetickets is on their game...I don't understand what happened with them that night! Erica wanted to experience the LA rave scene so she went into the crowd....cell phone reception is always pretty terrible at these events, but I was surprised to see that my text messages were going through. Excited even! I wandered around the VIP area behind the Together Area Tent...searching for people I knew...but no one looked familiar...luckily I ran into a friend and talked with him and his g/f for a couple minutes. After standing there for a bit I noticed two friendly faces...my boys Mike and Austin from the Space Rockerz! OMG it was nice to see people I knew! Maybe 15 minutes later Crissy finally made her way to me!!! It was nice to be reunited! So SR took us back to Markus's trailer which was now converted to theirs lol...booze galore...thankfully! 2 cocktails and 2 beers later I was feeling awesome! 5 Minutes to midnight we headed outside of the trailer to hear the music...and then the countdown started...10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1, HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! Champagne bottle was POPPED...and our glasses filled! Hugs all around and we ran to the VIP area and danced around drinking champagne! After the countdown we all ventured to the Arena...geezus it was a hot mess in there! Music was meh...we weren't digging it so we left back to the Together Tent..Laidback Luke was just about over...Erica met Crissy, Danny and I on the side and we hung out there until around 1:40...we decided to walk back to Deb's car to avoid the craziness! I said my goodbyes and went to the Radisson to wait...

It started out pretty rough, but ended on a pretty good note. Change is always good...sometimes its for the best, and unpredictable...so you just have to roll with the punches. Here are some pics from TAO!

Much Love, 

~E

Happy New Year...

So its 2011...another year...a fresh start...resolutions and what not. As for me...I have no resolution except to try and be better to myself...Love myself more. Because no one will love me if I can't love myself first. I plan on doing this in a couple of ways...

1. Remind myself daily that I am lucky to be living the life I am. Many people are less fortunate, and I tend to be selfish sometimes.
2. Work on my health...by going to the gym, and changing my diet. Limiting alcohol intake as well as junk food intake. and STICKING with it. I know how to do it. I just need to get in the right mind set to stick with it.
3. Work on what I'm good at...practice and make it better on a daily basis.
4. Stop Procrastinating...this only leads to laziness...and I am lazy enough already!

With that being said...I think those are small steps to take so that I can help myself be a better person!

I wish whoever reads this a great year...I hope that you achieve what you set out to achieve and that you meet your resolution!

Happy New Year
Cheers to 2011

~E