Until Recently I haven't been able to answer the question "Why are you single?" (When it does get asked) After thinking about it a lot...soul searching and such...this is the conclusion I have reached...
I am single...because I like my independence. I like not having to wonder what my "bf" is up to when we're not together...or what he is doing when he hangs out with his friends...I like doing my own things...I like being my own boss and playing by my own rules!
Don't get me wrong...I LOVE the feelings I get from being in a relationship...but at the same time I like NOT being in one too...
Sometimes I feel like I'm constantly lonely...but in all reality...I am making myself feel lonely...which comes from not loving myself first...so thats the plan...work on loving myself first...so that others can love me too...
Stop from worrying about what people think of me...and only concentrate on what I THINK of myself...and go from there.
I'm not perfect...NOOOO WAY! FAR FROM IT...but in order to exude happiness...I need to BE happy...I can fake happy til the cows come home...most of the time I AM HAPPY...but recently I haven't felt the happiness that I am used to...so its time to search for what makes me happy...pursue that goal of being happy!
I am determined to be completely happy...single...for now...and IF...(like they say) "He finds me when I stop searching for him" and only IF I AM HAPPY BEING ME...will I welcome it into my life. Until then...it isn't meant to be.
Right now I need to focus on things that make me/keep me happy...most of it revolves around MUSIC! So I shall emerse myself in music...every aspect of it! This will truly make me happy...
Off to work :D
Love and Music Beats,
EL <3
