4 weeks and going STRONG!!!

I started the 4th week of my Diet/Exercise/Life change plan this past Monday! I reallllly can notice a huge difference! I have lost 10LBS and my body feels healthier!!! I feel less depressed (weird how food affects your moods) I am less emotional...and overall I feel better! I wish I had more energy sometimes, but that is just a lack of sleep most days haha!

Miami is 5 weeks away! I am hoping to lose another 10-15lbs before then! I know I can...I HAVE TO!!!

Much love and thanks for all the support my friends/family/co-workers have been giving me! I use it as motivation!!!

<3,
E

Here are a couple comparing pics from the past couple of weeks...see if you can tell the difference?

1/22/11 Before Diet Started

1/29/11 ~ 1 week after Diet Started

1/29/11 ~ 1 week after Diet Started

2/5/11 ~ 2 weeks after Diet Started

2/12/11 ~ 3 weeks after Diet Started

Can you see any differences? Please let me know! Cause I do :D

So far So Good!!!

It is now Day 4 of my new regiment...diet wise! And I'm doing really well! I'm surprising myself daily!

It has definitely showed me that I am not useless in the kitchen HAHAHA! I haven't started going to the gym yet...this week wasn't a good one haha...Monday its go time!

I owe a huge huge thanks to...well I'll call her AJ...haha...for being there when I have a question...because I have so many!

I can't wait til the pounds start melting off...Miami is less than 2 months away! I need to look better than I already do :D

Here are some pics of what I've been eating...in case you want to start it too! :D

Lunch: Whole Wheat Turkey Sandwich (6 slices of turkey), Raw Veggies and Blueberries

Breakfast: Dannon Light and Fit Yogurt, 1/2 cup of Granola, 10 Blueberries and banana

Lunch: Whole Wheat English Muffin, 4 slices of Turkey, 1 Kiwi Mixed Raw Veggies

Dinner: Grilled Chicken with Grilled Carrots, Bell Peppers and Snow Peas

Lunch: Left Over Grilled Chicken raw Veggies and Blueberries

Dinner: Grilled Chicken, Mixed Grilled Veggies (Bell pepper, Zucchini, Carrots, Snow Peas) Before Whole Wheat Tortilla

Making Dinner...looks pretty!

Dinner: Fajita for 1...Grilled Chicken, Mixed Grilled Veggies, 1 whole wheat tortilla

PM: Snack, Milk Free....Muscle Milk - Vanilla Creme

Dinner: Grilled Chicken, Mixed Grilled Veggies, Brown Rice, sprinkle of Teriyaki sauce 

It's weird...now that I'm cooking dinner almost every night, I am constantly thinking of things to make during the day haha! I wonder what I'll whip up tomorrow!

Enjoy the pics!

~E

Oh....I wanted to say thanks to everyone who has been supporting me in this! With your motivation and support, I know I can do it! <3

Change starts now!

So many things need to change...and starting tomorrow...they are going to!

1. Thanks to motivation from a friend (well many friends), I am changing my diet/exercise plan. I went out and bought lots of veggies, some fruit, lean meat, whole wheat breads, and will no longer be drinking soda or juice! I will also be going to the gym...I'll start off slow...1-2 days a week, and then build up to more days a week. I really want to get back into yoga...and maybe start meditating for at least 10-15 minutes each night. I need to figure out way to clear the stress from my life...I'm hoping that going to the gym, meditating and doing yoga will do the trick!

2. I am no longer going to be pouring opportunities out to people who are not grateful for them. Yes...I am a nice person...I get walked on all the time...and this is stopping. I am not anyones connection into anything...I am my own connection...for me and me only. The only people I truly will help are my close close friends...those who do not use me for personal success. They appreciate me for me, not for who I know or work. This may sound a bit harsh...but like I said...I'm tired of being under appreciated for the opportunities that I give to others.

3. I have just acquired a book that I am going to be calling "The Bible." My goal is to have this book read by the end of this week. After reading it, I am going to use it daily...or as much as I possibly can! It will definitely help me be who I want to be...and conquer my own destiny!

I control the path to my destiny...my mind has all the answers...I am learning to trust myself and my judgement more...and recently it has come into play...and I'm glad at the choices I have made...and have swayed from.

I have to get the thought of "When's it my turn" out of my head...slowly but surely it will be my turn...and I look forward to that day so much...until then...I'm taking it day by day...

Hope you all had a great weekend!

~E

So Frustrated!

Why can't I just WIN for once!

Part of me feels used...doing something to help someone else out...and not getting the credit...it hurts! Why do people have to lie about how something really happens?

I'm done trying to help people...no more...I refuse to be ANYONES doormat... I refuse to let people walk all over me....if I have to be a bitch about it...I will be!

REALLY....WOW...I'm so disappointed in people!

~E

Helping out is in my nature....

But sometimes I feel like I never get back what I give...I truly believe in Karma...but lately karma has not visited me, well at least not in the ways that I am expecting it to. I am always there to help a friend, and give them an opportunity that they might not get on their own... and I don't mind...it really is my pleasure...and maybe I sound selfish for saying this...but sometimes I wish there was more gratitude for what I've done.

I always try to help out anyone and everyone that I can...it's just who I am...sometimes I wonder if people have ulterior motives tho...I would sincerely hope that people are as good hearted as I am by the opportunity that I have passed their way. But there are few that would turn the other shoulder and say...Ohhhh she knows "people" lets see what I can milk from her.

Ugh I really shouldn't have terrible thoughts like these...but sometimes, something someone says, or does or doesn't do really triggers it.

Maybe I'm just thinking into this way too much...which is probably what it is...I mean I am a) a girl, b) a taurus....over analytic and critical...Ok I'm gonna shut up now...

~E

Such A Good Night!

Ahhh I had such a great night tonight!!! Dinner with Co-workers at Elephant Bar! It was sooo yummy! I laughed so much tonight I thought I was gonna explodeeee! It was just what I needed! I night to get my mind off things...The food was good...and we all got free dessert...doesn't get much better than that! I hope that we do it like once a month!!!

After dinner...I met with my Mojo Jeff...it was totally nice to catch up and hang out outside of Circus!

Anyways I had a pretty good day...and I am off to bed! Thank Armin tomorrow is Friday!!!

~E

Because sometimes, writing it down helps....

Sometimes I feel alone, and depressed...but this quote I read today sums it all up...

"Never depend on others as your source of happiness, or you will surely be disappointed and heart-broken many times over. You alone are the source of your happiness and you alone are the source of prolonged emotional suffering. Short of physical force, all emotional pain is self-inflicted. Want is the cause of most emotional misery, and wise people want nothing which is not within their reach or control."




I know recently I've been having some problems with depression...and used a lot of kleenex...but at the end of the day, I am the creator of my own destiny...I have a hard time accepting that sometimes...most times, and on a daily basis occasionally, but I need to start having more faith in myself.


Most days I feel like things aren't going my way, or its not "my time" and that I am destined to be stuck in this rut forever...


I need to keep reminding myself that I am fortunate for being in the position I am right now...for living the life I live...for knowing the people that I know.


Lately I have been praying a lot too...not asking for God to change things...but for guidance...a path...a sign...God has answered many things for me in my life...and sometimes I am asking too much of him...I  must leave all the answers up to him...subtle signs, little answers, a direction...and in time I'm sure there will be the light up ahead pointing me in the right direction...in all areas in my life.


Wow it feels good to get this off my chest...it really does feel good to type it out...it won't totally erase the emotions I feel occasionally, but its a start...and thats all that I can ask for...


Anyways thats all for now....until next time...I hope this helps someone...anyone.


~E